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Say What's Real

4.19.2009 by Dizzy♥

Dear Dizzy,

You know I don't know what to say to you. You know I don't even know where to start. I can't even say "fuck him" cuz we both know you wake up with that sick feeling in your stomach, wondering about him. And you can't stand being lonely. But this situation ~ never really happened to me before. Matter fact, WAT THE FUCK REALLY HAPPENED? You can't even answer nobody. Cuz the answer we can come up wit is ridiculous. And you know it's ridiculous. Dude just disappeared? 10+ phone calls? 3 pg text messages? No response. But nah, nah relax sweetie, relax. Maybe something happened to his phone.... worse, maybe something happened to him..... yeah, yeah.....or maybe not. Everytime this happened before nothing ever happened to him or his phone... and it was never this long. So maybe something DID happen to him.

But damn gurl. I don't know what to tell you to do. Just the day before everything was fine, so why would a nigga just straight up fade you? Who knows. Niggas got different shit on they mind sometimes. Sorry.
But one thing I will tell you: I don't even care about writing this to you.
Why? Cuz you don't need no fuckin letter to be straight. Remember how you felt after Chris? Straight up almost died. And for what ~ for him to stay wit who he was messin wit & you to get wit your next for another 2yrs. So stop bitchin. Cuz honestly, the shit gets tired after a while. Especially wit you. Cuz you're gorgeous. And everytime shit gets fucked, another one pops up. And that's real. WE both know.
So, maybe dude'll come back ~ maybe he's fading you for good.

But please..... don't hold your fuckin breath waiting to find out.

Yours truly,
Dizzy

SellOut (Throwback Poem ~ Revamped)

2.26.2009 by Dizzy♥

I can't quite remember when I wrote this. But I actually lost it, remembered about it and then found it again lol. This time around tho, I decided to tweak it a little bit. So here goes:



SellOut

To my sellout…
My boo ~I always did wanna be JUST
LIKE YOU
Wow
How you could never imagine how you've choked all my expression
Stifled my thoughts...
Look how proud I am of you now
Look what you've grown up to be........
EVERYthing you said you wouldn't
You said:" Amongst me & them – you could never compare"
Funny how identical suits you far better
"Trust me and you’ll never feel that pain"
{And neva be without pleasure… eva…. again} L.F.
And now invisible scars will forever bear their hideous heads
Nestled in beds
That you and I shared
Your disappearing acts are such a f***** joke
But outside you've finished your construction
The most beautiful prison - cold & rigid
I pound my fist against your fortress’s walls, screaming
I’m right here, I’m Right Here, I’M RIGHT HERE!!!!!
But my voice lands on deaf ears…
So where am I really?

More importantly, where the hell are you?
Is it 6 floorz up….or maybe 5 townz over
Idk....

But since I know you'll never return
I can finally read your Dear Jane letter
Loud & clear
So, boo
Guess there ain't much left for me to do….
Besides sell out too….
I always did wanna be just like you

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Tha Beautiful Ppl

2.20.2009 by Dizzy♥

So, I wanted to compile a post of photos I've ran across over the dayz that caught me eye. Male & Female. The onez where I actually look just a sec longer and be like ~ wow, that's actually hot. Or something along those linez that makes me wanna take pics that ppl stare at too. Hehe

Oh yeah, DON'T start going off on the side about talent, careers, none of that. This post is about the asthetics. Everything else can come some other time. And p.s. Is it even really necessary for me to add the *no homo* disclaimer? I just recognize what's (in my opinion) appeasing.

So here we go.... if it bombz - hey it's only round 1.....
First up is Miss Megan Fox @ the Golden Globes. For those who are unfamiliar, she was the leading lady in Transformers. Peeped this over on Kim K's blog. Thought the whole look was fierce.


Next is none other than Miss Lauren London. or unfortunately known as "New-New". Loved her ever since ATL. Still on the rise.
Miss Mya. Shoutoutz to the fellow dancer. Pic which I believe is from Vibe Vixen mag (not video vixens) is actually up on my wall. I thought this pose looked very elegant.

Of course none other than tha hubby, tha KING - T.I. I used this is one of my very first posts. The black & white/beach look got me. The other's just a bonus. :-)

Yes, another garnered career from the F.O.L. series but I admit, the gurl is very pretty. Don't know about the whole lack-of-clothing choice (lol) but I loved her skin tone, the jewelry and her eye color in this shot. Miss Candace Cabrera aka "Black".


Stank face and all, the XXL Eye Candy of the Year had a nice mag cover. Her title shoot tho was way more classy, IMO, which is what I really liked.


Peeped these yesterday of Mr. Lebron James. Again, something about black & white adds something to pics. I don't believe I ever saw him in any shoots like this previously.

Despite all the DRAMA surrounding the singer, I wanted to add this one. I remember thinking the layout of this album cover was very cute. The line/curve of her frame surrounded by the highlight and then shadow was a cool effect. P.S. Today is her 21st birthday.

This one's an oldie but a goody for me. People often complain that Trey be lookin mad regular but I think that's what worked in this pic. It's something real comfortable about it. The happy trail is a cute touch lol. But the demeanor is what appealed to me most. Cute!



Miss Nicole Ari Parker. Best known for her role on Soul Food The Series and as Reese in Brown Sugar, also Boris Kodjoe's lovely wife. I always thought she was beautiful and this pic is very warm and sultry in a way.


Last but certainly not least (no pun intended) - Tyson. While I was saving pics I wanted to post, THIS pops up on the second page in Google. You already. Lol. Um........I actually don't think I have any wordz. I'll just let this one rock for yall. Lol Besidez, what's more beautiful than being comfortable in how God initially intended us to be?
Hope ya liked! Muah
N.D.I.B. ♥

Poem - Poison

1.05.2009 by Dizzy♥

I swear
You drain every last drop of life out my veins
Paralyze my flow
Stop my breath in it's tracks
You shoot your ice cold venom
Into my thoughts
And got me ready to jump in front of a moving car
Only to have it dodge me, swerve effortlessly
Leave me waiting for my next dose
And I know you care...
But sometimes your negative outweighs your positive
I know at the end of the day you're bad for me
But I still come back for more
Shocking myself a little more each time; pushing my limits
It's like.......I can't STOP
Nor will you stop me
Don't even recognize my frame in the reflection anymore
Just a numb substance falls into my dips & curves
Look what you've become
You're a poison, luv
And guess what?
I l o v e it


Inspired by "Broken-Hearted Girl" by Miss Beyonce. It reminds me of another poem I wrote this past summer called "The Addict". I like this one better. :-)

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